Helmi Revo

2009-01-22T13:57:00.003+08:00

Whooo!!!! i feel great today...

went to Farhan's place ytd. it was great as we review back what have we have done in life and we have to do next. i suddenly had this vision that i want to open up my own orphanage ... Cool or wad!! .

i just feel that each individual should do his or her lil part for society.

just imagine if everyone could part with a lil cash they have each month for charity, the help could really go a long way!!! ...

SO pple do you want to help me with this cause???

2009-01-18T16:26:00.001+08:00

what a day i must say.. i gt my haircut from my cousin!!!... OMG!!, to think i actually

trust him to cut my hair!!! well which i did and it turn out not bad actually... good job!!

thanks cuz!!!

2009-01-04T15:06:00.000+08:00

i feel great today!!!... i woke thinking that im a millionaire now!! whooo!..

If u want to be a millionaire, u have to think like a millionaire!!!!

the feeling is priceless people!

who wants to be a millionaire???!!!!

i do!!

2009-01-01T14:39:00.000+08:00

WHOOO!!!!! 2009 here i come!!

after almost 3 years of absence, im finally back!!!

what an xperience it has been for the past 3 yrs.

and to top it all,

I'm my own business owner now!!!!

gosh i just feel great!!

2006-10-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

( oh man , dats me!!)

thankz ju for ur great skills in taking diz pic... haha.. mayb u could b a photographer?? ... lol ... i guess this picture is a special 1 ... ask any of my fren n the will say i rarely smile .. its quite true actually, wif all the troubles thats weighing on my mind, i really wonder hw i could pull off this smile .. mayb one look n pple would think im actually happy bt deep down, i guess only i myself knows.....

2006-10-03T23:27:00.000+08:00

the crew

(from left: Haz , opi , zaidi, me and ju)

finally a group photo of my close frens.. they are the ones that had been tolerating my crap n nonsense all this while... lol .. i guess im the only dat is still single... they hav found their happiness bt where's mine?? ... haiz .. life is juz really unpredictable....

.....

2006-09-28T12:01:00.000+08:00

well, its been ages since i last updated... i guess life still goes on despite all dat has happened .. i hope through all this, i will b a bttr person ... for a start, the new term is actually more stressful bt i guess it doesnt matter to me... ill still b late as usual n lectures are attended juz for the sake of attendance ... its ironic coz, im really nt sure wad is the purpose of life... i really felt lonely at times bt wad to do rite?... life is full of ups and downs bt i guess mine is to the downside.... i really miss my parents, i hope they r doin fine... im sorry mon n dad, i think i've let u 2 down ... i very much want to go back bt i donno hw to face u... im ashamed dat im so weak., ego has destroyed me... i guess the best remedy is juz to let it all out, i've been keepin all the sadness to a point dat its really too much for me to handle.. shud i come back??... i guess only time will tell ... i need the motivation to study!!!...

2006-09-22T20:31:00.000+08:00

its been ages since i last post something.. coz theres nothing much to write over the past week.. nothing exciting happened and i guess im pretty much the same old person.. i felt much bttr nw after the whole episode thingy wif her.. i guess we did the right thing dat day.. we much more or less iron things out.. its ironic hw a short chat on the msn could change evrything.. i hope i made the right decision... a decision though hard to swallow bt i know its the best for evry1... i guess in life, u hav to make certain sacrifices and this is juz one of them... for nw , moving on wif life is wad i ought to do... forgetting the past and look forward for the future ..

2006-09-12T21:40:00.000+08:00

before

after
WHeEEE... finally gt my hair done today, i guess im quite satisfied on hw it turned out ... after so many years of curly hair, my hair is finally straight!! ... hahaha ... well, i noe i should hav done dat a long time ago bt i seriously don hav the time man... haha ... kinda strange ar , i used to hav straight hair wen i was young den it suddenly turn curly... im juz puzzled as gt this auntie says dat the chinese beliv dat curly hair guys are naughty??.. haha ... i tink its nt dat true after all right??.. i bet my friends don find me naughty at all .. right guys??? ... lol ... hw i juz wish holidays are more fun!!! ... someone please ask me out!!.. im soooooooo boooorrEEEEDDD!!!... ahahahah... :P

Sacrifice

2006-09-04T13:06:00.000+08:00

hw ironic could it be?.. hav i hung on to false hope?.. man, i juz hate diz feeling... i guess its juz time for me to spap out of it.. of the 3 guys she could hav chosen, do i even deserve a place dere? ... haiz.. i hope time could heal all wounds.. i juz hope dat my bro will really cherish her if she would choose him coz i noe his love for her would b greater than mine..

a wonderful chalet

2006-08-30T23:48:00.000+08:00

its been close to a month since i last updated dis blog.. well, been busy werking and studying for exams which i hope i can pull through... i guess the main reason for making dis post is for this special someone whom i really like being around with... she juz makes my day with her smile and stuff.. well, came back from the class chalet today. i was so tired cos i didn slp bt its well worth it as she was dere at the chalet too. the thing dat i regret was actualling missing the first day of the chalet bcoz of work n they told me dat it was a happening night. well, i went there on the second day juz in time for bbq. didn saw dat many people at the chalet at first as most of them went cycling wen i reached. after a while she came back wif her friends. she was shocked to see me coz she tot i was not coming. at dat moment my heart was racing, she look more gorgeous than ever bt i juz kept quiet.
after dinner and stuff, we played this card game called dai di. i was sitting right beside her. she was caring n ask me to b careful not to hit my head on the table n even offered me a pillow. the look on her face with concern really touched me. we were sitting quite close to each other and at dat time i really wish i could lean my head on her shoulders as i was getting tired. at around 3a.m, we all decided to go night cycling. there were six of us me, kok ping, jimmy, hui rong and her n another gal. she was abit high as she was drinking before we went. i was quite worried initially bt she assured me dat shes fine. we cycle to the fisherman village and she decided to play the swing. i tot dat it was a bad idea bt i juz kept quiet. my worries was dat i hope we r nt disturbin any spirits or stuff in dat area n many elders hav warn me abt dat area as it was 4a.m in the morn. while they were playin wif the swing, i was actually asking 4 forgiveness to the surroundings as i was worried something might not b pleased dat we r intruding their area. she was enjoying herself wif the swing. i was really worried as jimmy n her was making a considerable amount of noise bt i dowan to ruin her mood so i juz kept mum. they all noticed it bt i juz kept quite all the way. bt in my heart , i was praying for her safety. i dowan aniting to happen to her. wen we reached the chalet area, some of us wans to continue to cycle bt she was tired.i purposely went back to the chalet wif her n jimmy as i wanna make sure dat she was alright. i ask her to wash up n i said some prayer n ask her to slp. as we continue cycling, my mind was actually at the chalet worrying 4 her. bt i was relief to c her sleeping soundly wen we came back. by the time we came back it was oredi 7plus n me n jimmy decided to go swimming. we jumped into the pool n swam for a mere 5 mins b4 we were asked to get out as the pool officially opens at 9. with notin to do, we all went back to the chalet to get some sleep before we check out.
i didn slp though as many things were running through my mind, i was tinkin shud i tell her hw i really feel or shud i juz keep to myself. i decided to keep it to myself n let nature takes its course. as she currently hates guys bcoz of a past relationship dat destroys her trust in guys i decided its nt the time to tell. bt i really wans to get it off my chest. hw?? .. she is a perfect gal which all guys wants to hav as a gf. well, i don tink i hav the chance bt i would like to wish her happiness. for nw, i hope i could see her again real soon ..........

2006-06-29T20:42:00.000+08:00

late for skool as usual today... i serioussly think im gonna get my red invitation letter soon.. i hope i dont coz i dowan to dissapoint my parents... they have placed their hopes on me bt i don tink this is hw i shud repay dem.... im sorry mon n dad .... i'll werk harder frm nw on.....
the mbw lecturer was kind enuf to mark my attndnce , even though im late she gave me a chance n let me off this time bt wonder hw many times more ill b let off if i continue like this??.. if it was nt for her, i wouldnt hav passed my mbw, she guide me until i understand... im quite shocked to noe i passed too, its like i given up hope on dat topic ... i guess i've been given a second chance... i hav a feeling dat my peers r quite shocked of my test results.. for a person dat often came late n nva listen to lectures in class, achieving this kind of results r quite a shocker... talking abt being shocked, i was given my own shock wen i read ai chia's blog.. well, i do get a good laugh though .... she said i might b gay !... hahaha .... its nt dat i gt something against dem bt im straight okay!... lol... ai chia, mebbe u shud try me out to c im gay anot... hehehe... i hope u wont hate guys animore coz nt all guys r wad u think they are... :)

i need to change!!

2006-06-28T20:32:00.000+08:00

i seriously need to change.. for the past week , i've nva been early for lectures.. god knows hw bad my attendance is bt wad can i do??... even wif good results bt bad attendance is no point!.. haizzzz.... its like im nt even motivated to go skool.. hw i wish sumone special would give me a wake up call evryday n im sure ill b fully awake wen i hear her voice... bt will the day ever come?? ... sometimes i do feel lonely at times... with the stress im burdened with, i really wonder hw much longer i could hold on ..

2006-06-17T21:36:00.000+08:00

im dissapointed in myself.. the tournament didn go as planned like i want it to. I guessed im nt prepared enuf bt its okay... coz ill be back nx year!! ....

Stepping Stone

2006-06-12T16:03:00.000+08:00

Haven been updating 4 awhile... been busy the whole week working but i guess i enjoyed evry moment of it... frm the different kind of people i met to the the time bowling wif all my frens during werking hours, i guess its worth the time although going back home almost 4 am evriday... well, today is the day i guess.. the ferz day of the National Age Group bowling championship.. i guess this is the stepping stone to my bowling career.. been trainin for this for quite some time n my expectations r quite high for this.. i hope to make my parents proud by gaining something from the tournament... although im nt staying wif them nw, i do miss them a lot.. i hope things would get back to normal soon... well 4 nw, my focus nw is to perform on the tournament.... wish me luck i guess.....

A new beginning

2006-06-04T22:15:00.000+08:00

i guess this shud b the life changing event of my life... i wanted to started this long ago but i guess its better late than nva... theres many reasons 4 the birth of this blog... i guess the main thing is to keep it as a journal of my life ... so that i could reflect on wad i've been doin so far... its a shame though i didn manage to record some of the life changing event that has breezed through me .. all thats left is juz memories, memories dat i cant possibly remember throughout my life, thus recording it is the only practicle way.. as they say, we only hav a lifetime and not appreciating it is a waste....